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you're going to get hurt
you would think that if you have the capability
of detecting flaws in your life and in the
descions you've been making, then you'd take
the initiative to better these pitfalls.
it's a cycle, you'll eventually become weary
of wasting time, life, emotions. it's depressing though
when you've realized how satisfied you've become
with being uninspired and convetional.
i guess we all slip into holes that seem too deep
or steep to get out of...but you'll eventually learn
new tricks...or something...and in the future know to
stay away from certain things, people, places.
anyway, enough of my rants. my 4 week mark is on friday,
i'm getting really excited...i wish i were leaving
sooner...alot of my money is going into fixing my camera,
buying [lots of] film, and supplies for gift making. i talked
to a girl who did her exchange in Santiago [the largest/capital
city in chile], and she told me that it is very art
oriented. this is so wonderful, since school doesn't matter
while i'm abroad, i can just hop on a train from
my town and spend hours at museums and shops and whatever
else my little heart desires
[once my spanish is a little better of course].
i'll miss a few people..but those who really matter, i know
will still be around when i get back. i sure will miss
going to shows though [especially knowing that mates of
state, mono, minus the bear, appleseed cast, and some other good
bands are coming to town this fall]. Hopefully someone will
send me the new explosions in the sky cd.
hope everyone has been well. my last day of work
is thursday [i'll have free time galore]
...lets hang out before i depart.
this thing is close to death as is, but it will
for sure be six feet under within a few weeks.
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Saturday, June 11th, 2005
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| Time: | 11:48 am. |
| Music: | azure ray. |
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i haven't updated this thing in forever,
and i highly doubt that anyone will take there time time
out to actually read my unimportant words.
anyways, for the past 4 days i've been stuck on the Oklahoma
City University Campus. "OKLAHOMA!?!?" you may say "WHAT THE HELL
IS IN OKLAHOMA?!?!"
...well...nothing actually...except an orentation camp to prepare
me for my year abroad.
These past few days have been filled with a stream of diffrent emotions
EXCITEMENT!!..because i'm embarking on one of the most incrediable
opprotunities i'll every have in my life
FEAR...becuase i'm terribly afraid that i'll screw up..i screw up quite
a few things and i dont want such things as fear or angry or
selfishness to get into the way. I want to be able to absorb as much as
i can through this incrediable experience.
INTIMIDATION...some of these kids that are joining me here at this camp
are just fucking incrediable in so many diffrent elements...and i just
wonder..why would anyone ever choose little ol' me to represent so much:
My family, my country, myself...I just hope I will be able to hold up
to everyones expecations because so many people in my community have
sacrifised alot to get me to where i am and where i will be.
anyways...i have to run off to lunch now. if you're intrested in keeping
in touch with me while i'm in chile my e-mail is: leti_con@hotmail.com
and my departure date is August 19th.
adios.
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| Time: | 8:36 pm. |
| Music: | autolux - robots in the garden. |
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happy international women's day!!!
DRINK MORE WATER and less 40z!!!
mono, bteot, parlour in two days!!!
3 cigarillos and 4 rolls of film!!!!
ahhh i'm so excited.
jesse, friday night? that would be nice.
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Sunday, February 20th, 2005
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spring is approaching, the flowers are blooming on the trees
outside my balcony and everyones falling in love again.
( Read more... )
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Monday, January 24th, 2005
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monday's are depressing when you don't have rag time music.
i love buying records from half price book store because
they are always like 2 or 3 bucks.
p.s. if you ever see a sign like this, it probably means
that your car is going to be towed.
we learned that the hard way friday night.
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